My head seems to be a drummer in a rock band. The pounding spreads its joys to every joint in my body…especially the joints that normally ache with age. That of course makes my mind feel like the world is ending. Why is that? Its pudding proof that the Lord has made us physical and spiritual beings for sure.
Annabelle had a fever and a spotted face rash last week and when that went away, my headaches emphatically ensued and her nose became a colored running faucet. Blah. We also have just finished getting kissed by yet another typhoon and I can still hear the lose items being lifted and dragged to a new location. Life is not ending but it’s amazing how creativity leaves in the throws of survival mode. I have had no desire to write and honestly couldn’t even think about what to write about. But just having come back from a time at the library with my friend and her little girl, reminded me of the beauty of friendship and has helped my fingers pound out what my mind has been churning.
Sarah and I continue to let our girls play together even when one is sickly, we feel it builds their immune systems and it gives us a chance to talk. Today as the girls pulled down as many children’s books and videos as they could while chasing each other in circles, we discussed marriage, friendship, parenting, and politics. Practically, I don’t think we left with awe inspiring answers, but spiritually, we were encouraged that the Lord knows all of our struggles, complaints, and desires and that He is our hope and joy…even when we don’t always feel like it. I guess as believers, I feel like our lives should be perfect and easy sometimes, because we know that the Lord is in control and sovereign. I forget that the world is broken and we are all sinners that make mistakes and disappoint others. Yet even this is comforting because it summons back the truth that I need a savior to lead me. I can’t do life on my own.
My headache is still turning a tune, we are still sick, but my heart is a little less heavy with the help from a God placed friend.