Have you ever had such a great vacation or time in your life where words are so inadequate that they would be a mockery to the occasion? I just did.
As I was in the taxi on my way back from the airport (minus my luggage as it felt like Korea was a better place to hang out), I looked at the familiar glowing skyline of Bangkok and marveled at how it could look the same but I could be so different! How could I ever express to others about the past 2 weeks? I know that you have all felt that about a time in your life, the feeling you felt holding your baby for the first time, your elation of walking down the aisle to get your diploma, or perhaps the joy you had for Christmas when you were a kid…you just can’t make others understand as they are going through their normal routine of life. I just continued to let the city lights intrude my eyes as my thoughts ran elsewhere.
So, now what? Im sitting here looking at this screen in front of me realizing I have no idea what Im teaching today. Various teachers are coming into the staff room holding the secrets of their own 2 week vacation inside not able to express their thoughts either. I’ve heard of scuba diving, snorkeling, rock climbing, chillin on the beach, Chiang Mai, and met my housemates mom and aunt! They too hold claims to a story of their own that will remain with them forever, some have changed their outlook on Thailand for the good for what they have seen. Good times! But what now?
Now I find I need to be content with where I am although I desire to be elsewhere. Can God really give me peace and contentment? I don’t want my affections to wane but I want to finish the work He has before me. These next few months will be a new way to test my faith and beliefs, to consider my trials as joy and find my rest in my Savior and not circumstances or people. Im so thankful for good times in the past and I look forward to good times in the future. I just don’t want to lose today to either.